Today must have been the last straw, i just cant put down in words how greatly i feared for me and my friend's personal safety, i was really scared!
Seriously, just what's wrong with me, or the world (???) today? There're like, so many uhm, what do you call them, mentally unsound people around. I mean im not over-generalising here, and im not making a big fuss bout those people today, but having to see/attacked by 3 mentally unsound people in a span of 2 weeks, is not exactly what i say mere coincidence or luck. Something is wrong with the world. Too much stress? Too much negativity?
The first was at amk hub bus stop which was bout just a week ago. I was going home from the amk library after studying with zy and then there's just this rather plumb middle aged man looking at people, rambling on and on, irrelevant stuff. I just moved away from him but, i've learnt to take this as it is that, something terrible or sad must have happened to these kind of people, and he doesnt deserve weird looks or constant stares from me to question his behaviour. I understand, because he's not doing any harm.
Then the 2nd one was when i was going home from school one day on the train. I wouldnt use the word pity, because what right do i have to look down on someone like that? I just find it very sad that the old man's like what he is. He was singing those chinese opera-ish songs, and with lyrics that you can actually figure out :O haha, really loud, really energetic, really enthusiatic. You could almost tell that he's one of those caring old grandpa, who takes a deep interest and love for songs like that. Perhpas, just performing at the wrong place. Just as the train reached tpy and opened the doors, like so zun you know, he finished singing, and he said, 谢谢大家的支持，玩得开心一点! I had to get off i mean, but i heard his faint voices singing again as i walked up the escalator.
You know i'd really want to know. I'd really want to ask these people if they know what they're doing. Maybe its just that they havent woken up from their sleep, or that, they're living in their own world. Sometimes, its just about a gentle reminder, all it takes for them to avoid weird and disagreeing stares from the people around them. There's this little bit in me that wants to help them.
Today though, is the most terrible experience i would ever get in my
entire life, honestly, nothing can be worse than this. Jason was going to meet up his class for a gathering and so we're walking off towards the dhoby ghaut mrt. I dont know since when, there's this woman bout maybe 50? White and greyish hair, huge old school skin colour specs (that looks like a fly's eyes on her btw), really really skinny, didnt catch what she was wearing, probably pyjamas, slipper trailing behind the both of us. She was, too, talking really loudly like the previous 2 people had.
At first it didnt occur to me that, she was actually really directing her insanity at us, until we tried to walk faster and found that she was pointing her fingers and shouting at us. I really wanted to shut my ears and, argh but i cant you know, i kept talking to jason so maybe i can stop listening to her.
It has got to be the most offensive stuff that you can ever, ever ever ever say to anyone. It was so, sexually related and its just my goodness, OFFENSIVE. Okay i mean if you hear the word fuck like 10 times a day, its not that bad? I mean, sometimes people just take it to decorate their sentences right, like they'll feel empty or uncomfortable not saying fuck.
I dont know if the fact that for the first time when i heard her, i turned around, and trying to give way to her so maybe she can walk IN FRONT OF me, and giving her my due respect like usual by smiling very nicely at herr, telling her that i didnt mind, that had probably triggered her to take an advantage on me =/
She started off by saying what a chicken i am, and chicken doesnt mean scary cat kind of chicken k, like prostitue kind of chicken, you know, ji? HAHAHAHA. I was wondering what chicken she talking bout, bird flu yeah maybe. Like okay i cant remember the exact words that came out of her filty big mouth, but her main point is about how lose i can get, so easily get fucked by other man (?????), i give you 5 dollars laaaaah, i can fuck you upside down, why you're such a chicken, please lah, you must well let your own father fuck you right, go suck his cock bla bla bla all kinds of shit. FREAK, i really feel like puking, like physically, and yeah i mean literally, i felt really nauseous, i dont know why? Just this really uncomfortable feeling, i was scared, then i was very sad, disgusted.
Like why me? Why not go shout into the mirror all these words? hahahah. Jason's even worse my goodness, i think she threw her slippers at him coz i was concentrating on blocking off her nonsence when i reaslied the both of them were standing there so i rushed back. AND WTF SHE WAS HOLDING ONE OF HER SLIPPERS AND WAVING IT AROUND IN FRONT OF HIS FACE??? But he said he just stopped there, dont know if he said to make me feel better or what =/ She was like, you think you very big is it, i tell you my husband is an inspector (wth?) he will go deal with you dont think i scared of you hor.She then attempted to spit on jason i could hear it so loud and clear. Though he was facing her with his back having a bag, i really hope she didnt really spit, God knows what's in her saliva and polluted DNA. I really hope that She didnt, if not it'd be really bad. She also said offensive and insulting stuff at him bout letting his mother suck his bla bla bla bla bla bla yehdah..
It was really drama i guess, typical. but when you experience it yourself, its just different. Its a mixed feeling, scared, angry that your friend is offended but you cant do anything about it? There was this split second when i really thought that she deserved to be, i dont know, slapped? Or simply just disappear in this world.
And then the next moment, i really kind of pity her. I mean, using the word pity, would actually mean you're looking down at somebody, because you are of a higher self and value to that person. I dont really think i pity, like really look down on her, but i do feel sorry for her. She is not aware, she must have been through rough times, sexually abused, mentally abused etc when she was younger or something, which probably explains her behaviour today, i mean, i wouldnt be so unforgiving if i could come up and excuse for her like that. But i do have no respect for her. I hope she can get better though, get help, yeah?
But you know at the point of time when i felt so threatened, hahaha, i was kind of helpless. Felt like calling but i cant. Okay forget about it. Istill feel kind of nauseous when i think bout whatever she's said. Need to sterilise my brain now, and jason's bag.
OH and to top the day off, i had to send a freaking embarrassing email to the interact yahoo group HAHAHAHAHA mega loser, queen!
Alrite, end of rant hahahaha, sorry to put you thru this! Here're some photos today, omg love the underground, love the weather its awesome to take photos, too bad for those out in the sun ;D
AWESOME PLACE!!!! :D
Love the colours.
HAHAHAHA the security guard actually started chatting with me about THIS.
Y'know they're uhm, TANKS. But they're pink, and really flowery, heart shaped holes. Probably to bring out the more femine side of uhm, military and stuff haha :D
Mel you'll love this to bits.
NICE WEATHER <3
This is so patriotic HAHAHAHAHA. I <3 SINGAPORE
THIS IS DAMN FUNNY. HAHAHA, okay maybe not so when you're the one taking it =/
It was so scorching hot, they had to wear like that just to take some nice photos. The price you'll have to pay, hahahaha, but i think it'll be worth it ((:
The new displays for ERP had kind of pissed Mr Quek off hahaha he was telling us bout the different coloured words for different type of vehicles drawn nicely, like hey i already know how much i'll have to pay already OKAAY???! Dont have to waste more tax-payer's money to build this kind of stuff, damn funny.
Lee. hahahaha.
PRISOOON BREEEAK!!! <333. But wts hahaha is it me or did wentworth miller got a lot fatter? ):
